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When I was a kid, all I ever fucking wanted was for me da to see me. I mean, I'm the oldest, and I didn't think that he saw me. He spent a lot of time with me, sure, but he didn't really give a shite about me.

Then when I left for Belfast, all I fucking wanted was for the bloody tan to get the fuck off Ireland and to go back to bloody Britain. I wanted them to stop thinking they had the fucking right to muscle in on a place they didn't have any fucking right to. I ran guns for four years to help. I built bombs. I used them. I wasn't fucking afraid. The tan needed to get out, and I'm not sorry.

So then I ended up here, and now I want to be a doctor.

I don't know how all this shite changed. I still get a thrill from guns, and bombs, and shite like that. But what I wanted changed.

But I don't think that's the kind of want that people are talking about today.

Still think it should be.